Pain

I'm at wit's end. Pain is an amazingly strong and intoxicating force to confront. Pain battles on against you, never wearying, never waning. Pain wins. Hands down. Every time.

Why do doctors (the AMA, specifically, for my international friends) simply ignore when I am in pain...it's all in my head... ibuprofen is strong enough... you can use meditation and breathing to get through it. Bullshit. I'm fed up. I've done all that for years, now. Enough!

I want relief and I want it so badly. I'm ready to bare my soul to the Kaiser Medical Org. gods (very unforgiving gods, they are); that I'm ready to call it a life, I'm ready to drive my car into that tree (sorry, poor tree), I'm ready to give up. Will they believe me then? Probably not. So who loses, then? My poor family and friends. sigh.

So, I won't. I'll just sit here in pain and misery until all the little remaining brain cells have been eaten up by the process of "snapping out of it." Gods, I want to smack the next person who says that to me.

Ok. I'm done whining. sigh.